Love It When You Call

current mood: T-I-P-S-Y
theme song : Love it when you call by the feeling

OH YEAH, BITCHES, JEAN THE DORK IS BACK!
I had so much fun reading my previous posts and laughing at them. Then, something came to my mind, hmmm, I really should revive my blog since I am goddamn free at the moment.
Thus, here I am, again.
I must say I was indeed a teeny-weeny-whiny back then. I really had tons to blog!
Like complaining how sucky my life was and how sucky the guys I met were.

SO, what's the difference now? The only difference is I am getting whinier! Believe it or not.
What have I been doing so far? It's time to push the rewind button and refresh my memory a wee bit.

1. I was so happy when I got my first job. I couldn't be any happier when I got out of it. It's like one of the happiest moments in my life.

2. I thought I had a really big chance of becoming the next MOST-WANTED due to some juicy saucy issues going on in the previous company.

3. I am an adult. Like finally. Not physically but mentally. I am always a teen if you talk about physically. Not teeny-flatty-boobies that type but a toned up figure every guy dies for. OKIE, I AM LYING TO MYSELF. AT THIS STAGE, I BELIEVE I AM OFFICIALLY DRUNK.

4. I think I found my Mr. Fishtank. I think we were both sober when we met.

5. I can finally cook and bake without poisoning anyone. Oh yeah, you really should try my signature soup and the honey glazed chicken I make. I am pretty sure they are sooo good that you will chew your own fingers without realizing it.

6. Then, I resigned two months ago.

7. Have been slacking at home. Yet, I try to be useful and productive by contributing some of my money to our society. Which means shopping.

8. I have a cutesy named TUXY. He's like the most adorable and smartest kitten ever! He is so playful that every single thing at home can be his favourite toy, especially my BRA.

9. Still addicted to falsies.

10. Been exercising vigorously coz I wanna take part in the next Olympics game. NOT. Just wanna be ready for the sun-tanning in Perth.

11. Almost became a ZIT-ney Spears by trying out some facial products. Luckily, the elliptical machine saved me.

12. Can't wait for the Japan snow skiing trip in Feb.

13. Oh yeah. I almost murdered someone in the previous company.

14. Having a job interview tomorrow. Hopefully, I won't speak like a rocket and makes the interviewer thinks that I want the sales position so much when I am NOT applying for the sales position. THIS happens everytime.

15. Realized that Angus, Thongs and the Perfect Snogging is a nice movie to watch. At least, it's better than the movie talking about this 100-plus-year-old perverted old man liking the smell of a young girl's blood. Yeah, I am talking about Dwilight. Oops sorry, I mean Twilight. Frankly, I do not understand the acting. Can Robert.P and the rest act any better?It just made me laughing so hard when I watched it. What's with the face?? It's like, OMG, I could smell some period.

It was even funnier when Belle found out that Cullen was actually a vampire. Maybe she thought he was just being loony to put tons of foundation or BB Cream on his face to school.

Sorry to be mean. Yet, I don't have the slightest idea why teenies nowadays are crazily in love with this type of movie.

By the way, Aaron Johnson is such a hottie in Angus, Thongs and the Perfect Snogging.

p.s. FION LIAW, he's totally your type.

16. Alrighty, it's time to go to bed and get ready for the interview tomorrow. It's gonna be a beezee day for me tomorrow coz

17. It's BUTTER FACTORY tomorrow night!

-Signing Off-


00:02

Let Go
Current mood: -
Theme song : Let Go by Frou Frou

This feeling is, oh, I don't even know what this feeling is.
Perhaps a little bit scared?
Or very scared?
I wanna talk to someone so badly. Yet, there's no one I can talk to right now?

I knew it was gonna happen. But I chose to go ahead with it.
I knew it.
It is true that uncertainties scare the hell out of me.

Just stay,
when leaving is not the best solution.
Don't run,
when you have already started writing the tragedy.
Don't cry,
when tears do not taste the same.

This feeling is indeed taking control of me.





12:17

Nobody said it was easy.


22:56

Fever
current mood : puzzled
theme song : Fever by Kylie Minogue

Busy busy busy beeeee zeeeeeeee.
The Last semester kills. Well, the last semester does not really kill, but the projects and assignments do. URGH!
And yay! Our idea for the second assignment (MarComm) was chosen. Hence, we will get sooo busy to work with the FMS students for the following weeks. Which is a good thing. =)
For your information, the "we" here only consists of me and Candy while it's supposed to be 3 persons in a group for this project.
And where's the third one?
I think he's somehow dead or evaporated in the air.
It's alright if he just skipped a couple of meetings.
But, hello, UNCLE, did you contribute a single thing?! I really really hate free riders.
Come one, how old are you? TWO?
Be responsible!

So now we need to get the filming started soon. I bet this group mate of mine is still very clueless about the whole project. I think it's better for him to fly kite at home.
Right now, I am busy with looking for the right casts and costumes.
Oh yeah, the ad is to create top of mind awareness that the School of BA is launching a brand new course IBZ in 2009.
Erm, I can't possibly post up our whole idea there. Too bad.

For the casts, we need

1 male student as the Main Actor (Found)

2 Caucasians as the Businessmen (Found one, trying to ask Leann to ask the very-hawt-looking Mr. Saul to help us. Personally, I'd love to have Jeremie Oudin in the ad. Yet, I only met him once?!)

1 Girl as the SIA air stewardess (Outstanding)

1 Girl as the Secretary (Outstanding)


So yup. Still scouting for the so-called talents.
Hopefully, we can get everything done a.s.a.p.
Oh shiat, I haven't come up with a new idea for the citibank ad. =x

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Met up with Beyotch on Monday.
Never seen her being so troubled before. Gal, just don't get yourself hurt yeah.
Shouldn't I be saying the same thing to myself?
Oh, hell, I seriously have no idea.
Gal, I just wanna say how much I miss you although we just met like a few days ago.
Awwww I miss those days.
Remember those days we talked about the boys we liked in high school and those sleepless nights we had and etc etc etc?
I miss us. Where the hell is Fion? She's been MIA for too long.
Gals, taim i ngra leat!

By the way, Kylie Minogue is coming to town!!!!!
Yet, I still haven't found someone to go to her concert with me yet. =(

Me : Eh, Kylie Minogue is coming!!!
Friend : Yeah, I know.
Me : Oh I wanna goooooo so badly. Are you going?
Friend : No. She's too old for me. I don't listen to her music.
Me : ............................

How I wish I am still in Shanghai.
My boss, Macon, would definitely go to the concert with me.
Coz we are both crazy about Kylie.

Fever sure has got me good
What you do when fever takes hold
I can't help but need this drug
Don't you feel the fever like I do





17:11

Love at first sight
Current mood :=)
Theme song : Love at first sight by Kylie Minogue

I don’t have the slightest why many people are in the emo shit lately.
It seems like the love bugs have stopped bugging them and they suddenly felt so out of place. Like what I mentioned previously, emo faces are basically what I see in school everyday.

Friend E : So how can I get over her?

Me : Time heals. ( I know it’s probably the worst answer. Yet, it seems to be the best solution.)

Friend E : You know, I took a year to get over someone whom I dated for about one month.

Me : Oh shit. You have been dating ******* for 8 months! So you are going to take 8 freaking years to get over her?!

Oh, Friend E actually went speechless after that.

Well, friends, it is not gonna be easy. But, trust me, time heals.
Been there. Done that.

We often hold onto something because we fear that nothing that great will ever happen to us again. That explains why many of us do not want to let go of a particular thing or even a relationship even when we ought to.
And that also explains why I took a little while to get over J. It was not something I wanted to mention. Not in my freaking blog, especially. Well, since I have gotten over it completely,
Why not?

Do you seriously believe in love at first sight?
Crap?
Personally, I do believe in that. At least, I experienced it once. And it happened in a mutual way! It was something rare actually. I mean how often does that happen in your life? If you are talking about one-night-stand, sorry, it is out of the topic. In fact, one-night-stand is purely about lust not love.
Thus, I must say it is certainly one of the best memories I have ever had. I did not even expect to fall for someone when I was in Shanghai. I mean how could I? I was only having a freaking internship there for like 4 months?! It was absolutely not the smartest thing to do. Yet, it happened.
All I know was that every possible Kylie’s song was playing in my head non-stop.

My baby Doesn't matter what's going on or who's around us
All I see is you
Right now they're playing our song
Dance floor is ours
All I see is you

Oh yeah, the DJ was really playing my favourite song when I first met him.
It is “Because of you” by Ne-yo. Yup, it is an old song. But so what? It was the song I would request whenever I went clubbing in Shanghai.
Whenever the DJ saw me in the club, he would surely say, “BECAUSE OF YOU!”
And once the song was played, I would definitely scream. Haha.. I was indeed high. Queenie and the gang always laughed at me for that.

Want to, but I can't help it
I love the way it feels,
It's got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it, I want it when I don't
Tell myself I'll stop everyday, knowin' that I won't

“Will we see each other again?” he asked.
I must say he has the sweetest and cutest smile ever. And the most amazing thing is that he can speak mandarin! He even speaks it in a very cute way. I still remembered when he made a double-line under my Chinese name and said, “It’s very important. I have to remember that.”
“Do you actually believe in love at first sight?” I asked.
“Yeah. I do.”
I heard something about penguins. It says that it only takes 10 seconds for penguins to know if they fall for each other. I think we both definitely acted like two stupid penguins that night. Haha!

The way you walk
The rhythm when you're dancing
Every inch of you spells out desire
You're such a rush
The rush is never ending
Now, you got it, you're wow, wow, wow, wow
You got it; you're wow, wow, wow, wow

"Cold hands like yours need warm hands like mine."

He said that. They said it's merely some bullshits from guys. I don't care if that's just a trick but I was totally melted away. Calling me stupid or what. Yeah, it takes more than one night to understand each other. And it probably takes more than one night to know if it's just a lust.
But time was running out. There's no point coz I had to leave the country anyway and he had a career there. Hence, we both know that the little "chemistry" between us was not so strong that each party would want to sacrifice.

I have no idea if he meant whatever he said or just trying to please me that night. Yet, I believe every single word he said.
Will we see each other again? It was not just a matter of time. The destiny plays a big role here. If it's meant to be, we will.
It was a beautiful night still. I am somehow glad that things did not work out eventually. Who knows what might happen and actually ruin the best night ever?

Isn’t it good enough that I had the best of it that night? Love at first sights does exist.

Does it last? It looks like my case does not work that way. Yet, I am sure it can last.

I got a problem and I don't know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don't know if I would quit but I doubt it

00:09

I'll be ok
current mood : Trying to be optimistic
theme song : I'll be ok by Mcfly

Another Mcfly's song.

When everything is going wrong
And things are just a little strange
Cos' for so long now

You've forgotten how to smile.
And overhead the skies are clear
But it still seems to rain on you,
And your only friends all have
Better things to do.

Yup, no matter how bad the thing might turn up to be or it already is, just tell yourself,
"I'LL BE OK!"
I have no idea if it's bad or good to know that I am actually not alone and, in fact, others are actually facing the same kind of probs (more or less).
Both Eugene and I found it was ridiculous when the both of us actually decided to slack in school and staring at the small youtube screen and feeling emo at the same.
And one of the videos we watched was
That's why you go away by MLTR.
Funny enough.
What's up with us?!
Come on, it's not the end of the world. Seriously, just move on, shall we?

The first two weeks of school were never good. The lectures suck enough.
And the class sucks too.
The lunch time was never fun.
The truth is,
we were not really eating when we were having our lunch. You got what I'm trying to say here?
I realised that most of us tended to "space out" frequently.
Basically, we just went to school with the sulky face. =(

Well, what can I say? Let's stay optimistic, pals!
One of the methods to stay optimistic and feel good about life is
EXERCISING!
Oh yeah , other than jogging, I think I fall in love with GYM as well.
And I am joining aerobics class this Friday! Simply just can't wait.
Oh please, Eugene, I don't go to gym to see guys okay! I am not that shallow please.
Okie lah, I got abit distracted when I saw a hot and muscular hunk passed by.
Haha.
Anyway, I'd rather see "Shemale" in our class. Coz it's more entertaining. Ooooops =x

Perhaps life is not really going according to the plans at this very moment.
Yet, it is absolutely fine to have changes in our lives sometimes.
Just bear with it.

When you're down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When you're down and lost
Along the way,
Try a little harder
Try your best to make it
Through the day

Oh, just tell yourself
I, I'll be OK
I, I'll be OK

Yes, we will be OK!


17:33

Bubblewrap
I wish I could Bubble Wrap my heart,
Incase I fall and break apart,
I'm not God I can't change the stars,
And I don't know if there's life on Mars,
But I know you hurt,
The people that you love and those who care for you,
I want nothing to do with the things you're going through.

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realized,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Whoo oo oo ooo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

I'm a little dazed and confused,
Life's a bitch and so are you,
All my days have turned into nights,
Cos living without, without, without you in my life,
And you wrote the book on how to be a liar,
And lose all your friends,
Did I mean nothing at all?
Was I just another ghost that's been in your bed?

Cos this is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realized,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Whoo oo oo ooo,
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

Yeah!
Turn on the radio honey,
Cos every single sad song you'll be able to relate!
This one i dedicate


Whoa oh!
Don't get all emotional baby,
You can never talk to me your unable to communicate!

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realized...

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realized,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Whoo oo oo ooo,
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

This is Goodbye


21:49