the dork
is merely an ordinary dork,
has the world's WORST judgment in guys,
thinks she's from outer space,
is trying NOT to fall for the wrong guys,
is trying to be a grown-up,
meanwhile, being herself.
Love at first sight Current mood :=) Theme song : Love at first sight by Kylie Minogue
I don’t have the slightest why many people are in the emo shit lately. It seems like the love bugs have stopped bugging them and they suddenly felt so out of place. Like what I mentioned previously, emo faces are basically what I see in school everyday.
Friend E : So how can I get over her?
Me : Time heals. ( I know it’s probably the worst answer. Yet, it seems to be the best solution.)
Friend E : You know, I took a year to get over someone whom I dated for about one month.
Me : Oh shit. You have been dating ******* for 8 months! So you are going to take 8 freaking years to get over her?!
Oh, Friend E actually went speechless after that.
Well, friends, it is not gonna be easy. But, trust me, time heals. Been there. Done that. We often hold onto something because we fear that nothing that great will ever happen to us again. That explains why many of us do not want to let go of a particular thing or even a relationship even when we ought to. And that also explains why I took a little while to get over J. It was not something I wanted to mention. Not in my freaking blog, especially. Well, since I have gotten over it completely, Why not?
Do you seriously believe in love at first sight? Crap? Personally, I do believe in that. At least, I experienced it once. And it happened in a mutual way! It was something rare actually. I mean how often does that happen in your life? If you are talking about one-night-stand, sorry, it is out of the topic. In fact, one-night-stand is purely about lust not love. Thus, I must say it is certainly one of the best memories I have ever had. I did not even expect to fall for someone when I was in Shanghai. I mean how could I? I was only having a freaking internship there for like 4 months?! It was absolutely not the smartest thing to do. Yet, it happened. All I know was that every possible Kylie’s song was playing in my head non-stop.
My baby Doesn't matter what's going on or who's around us All I see is you Right now they're playing our song Dance floor is ours All I see is you
Oh yeah, the DJ was really playing my favourite song when I first met him. It is “Because of you” by Ne-yo. Yup, it is an old song. But so what? It was the song I would request whenever I went clubbing in Shanghai. Whenever the DJ saw me in the club, he would surely say, “BECAUSE OF YOU!” And once the song was played, I would definitely scream. Haha.. I was indeed high. Queenie and the gang always laughed at me for that.
Want to, but I can't help it I love the way it feels, It's got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real I need it when I want it, I want it when I don't Tell myself I'll stop everyday, knowin' that I won't
“Will we see each other again?” he asked. I must say he has the sweetest and cutest smile ever. And the most amazing thing is that he can speak mandarin! He even speaks it in a very cute way. I still remembered when he made a double-line under my Chinese name and said, “It’s very important. I have to remember that.” “Do you actually believe in love at first sight?” I asked. “Yeah. I do.” I heard something about penguins. It says that it only takes 10 seconds for penguins to know if they fall for each other. I think we both definitely acted like two stupid penguins that night. Haha!
The way you walk The rhythm when you're dancing Every inch of you spells out desire You're such a rush The rush is never ending Now, you got it, you're wow, wow, wow, wow You got it; you're wow, wow, wow, wow
"Cold hands like yours need warm hands like mine."
He said that. They said it's merely some bullshits from guys. I don't care if that's just a trick but I was totally melted away. Calling me stupid or what. Yeah, it takes more than one night to understand each other. And it probably takes more than one night to know if it's just a lust. But time was running out. There's no point coz I had to leave the country anyway and he had a career there. Hence, we both know that the little "chemistry" between us was not so strong that each party would want to sacrifice.
I have no idea if he meant whatever he said or just trying to please me that night. Yet, I believe every single word he said. Will we see each other again? It was not just a matter of time. The destiny plays a big role here. If it's meant to be, we will. It was a beautiful night still. I am somehow glad that things did not work out eventually. Who knows what might happen and actually ruin the best night ever?
Isn’t it good enough that I had the best of it that night? Love at first sights does exist.
Does it last? It looks like my case does not work that way. Yet, I am sure it can last.
I got a problem and I don't know what to do about it Even if I did, I don't know if I would quit but I doubt it
00:09
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
I'll be ok current mood : Trying to be optimistic theme song : I'll be ok by Mcfly
Another Mcfly's song.
When everything is going wrong And things are just a little strange Cos' for so long now
You've forgotten how to smile. And overhead the skies are clear But it still seems to rain on you, And your only friends all have Better things to do.
Yup, no matter how bad the thing might turn up to be or it already is, just tell yourself, "I'LL BE OK!" I have no idea if it's bad or good to know that I am actually not alone and, in fact, others are actually facing the same kind of probs (more or less). Both Eugene and I found it was ridiculous when the both of us actually decided to slack in school and staring at the small youtube screen and feeling emo at the same. And one of the videos we watched was That's why you go away by MLTR. Funny enough. What's up with us?! Come on, it's not the end of the world. Seriously, just move on, shall we?
The first two weeks of school were never good. The lectures suck enough. And the class sucks too. The lunch time was never fun. The truth is, we were not really eating when we were having our lunch. You got what I'm trying to say here? I realised that most of us tended to "space out" frequently. Basically, we just went to school with the sulky face. =(
Well, what can I say? Let's stay optimistic, pals! One of the methods to stay optimistic and feel good about life is EXERCISING! Oh yeah , other than jogging, I think I fall in love with GYM as well. And I am joining aerobics class this Friday! Simply just can't wait. Oh please, Eugene, I don't go to gym to see guys okay! I am not that shallow please. Okie lah, I got abit distracted when I saw a hot and muscular hunk passed by. Haha. Anyway, I'd rather see "Shemale" in our class. Coz it's more entertaining. Ooooops =x
Perhaps life is not really going according to the plans at this very moment. Yet, it is absolutely fine to have changes in our lives sometimes. Just bear with it.
When you're down and lost And you need a helping hand When you're down and lost Along the way, Try a little harder Try your best to make it Through the day
Oh, just tell yourself I, I'll be OK I, I'll be OK
